This is the second post in a series. Read part one below.
Unfortunately, during my teen years, I didn’t have any idea it was possible to script my thoughts. Looking back I see that I thought, was what I believed. And what I believed was how I lived. I put myself first always. And I lived my emotions just millimeters from the surface. This didn’t make a pretty picture.
I’ve shared my story on this blog before, and as some of you know, my life is an example of what not to do.
I was raised in a Christian church, and I believed in God, but the message didn’t move from my head to my heart. When I became a teenager I didn’t think about how God wanted me to live. I concerned myself with how I wanted to live. I didn’t go to church often. I didn’t read my Bible. I was mostly concerned with doing my own thing.
At age seventeen I found myself pregnant. I dropped out of regular school and I attended special classes. My boyfriend broke up with me. My friends went on with their own lives. I was no fun any more and they moved on.
During these teen years, I had lived my life unscripted, going along with every emotion. When I found myself in a hard situation, and I also found myself in deep depression.
Yet it was during that time when people I discovered a group of people who cared for me. Women from my mom’s church reached out to me. They invited me to study the Bible with them. They invited me to church. When I was pregnant, they gave me things for my baby.
I saw the love of Jesus through them. They reminded me that God loved me no matter what I had done.
Then, when I was 6-months pregnant I knew I needed to live God’s way and not my way. One morning I prayed, “Dear Jesus, I have messed up my life big time. If you can do anything with my life, please do. I want to do things your way.”
After that I started scripting my thoughts. I did this by reading God’s Word and meeting with other Christians in church. I learned that I didn’t just need to let my thoughts run away, but I could plan for a good future. I could think through good responses. I could read God’s Word, the Bible, and then make good decisions.
I realized that God loved me more than anyone else. He had a good plan for my life. He created the world. He was wiser than anyone. And God had given me His thoughts in the Bible. I had only one job, to read those thoughts and to obey them. So I tried doing that.
My life changed because of my thoughts. As my thoughts turned around my life turned around. As I fixed my thoughts on God and God’s Word my actions changed.
Later this week, I’ll share a few actions you can take to manage your own script.
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