In my life, I don’t have any real enemies, but if there is one intangible thing that I always seem to be fighting against it’s TIME. It robs me when it need him most. It turns little cares into big concerns when it hurries on and I still have no answer. With every tick-tick it takes me one step closer to “never getting all this done.”
Lately, TIME has ticked away on a house that we really need to sell. TIME means money, as we pay a house payment for an empty house. It means being unsettled, because over half of our stuff is in storage as we rent in our new location.
Of course, even though I’d like to place a dark cape and a mask on TIME, that’s not where the problem is. TIME … and the ticking down of it … isn’t something I need to fight against. Instead, as God’s been revealing to me lately, TIME is a tool in His hand that is used to reveal what is really in my heart. Mostly, misplaced security.
Because our house hasn’t sold in the TIME I wanted it to, God has shown me my lack of trust in Him … and my dependance on things of this world. He’s shown me that I look to home ownership as success and security. He pointed out my false heart-belief that when we buy a new home in our new location only then we’ve “arrived.”
God opened my eyes to this by leading me to Psalm 30:15. “My times are in your hands,” David said. God is in control of TIME. Of all the events that seem to take way too long. I needed to hear that.
Some lessons can only be learned over time … and discovering the truth what is in my heart is one of them. If our house had sold right away, and we’d moved into a nice place in our new city, I never would have realized how much trust I’m placing in things more than God.
God has also reminded me lately that He lives outside of TIME. What seems to take forever I my eyes is just a blink of an eye to Him. TIME may feels like it’s throwing me punches, but instead it’s a tool that God’s using to mold and shape me.
So even though the clock is still ticking, I’m realizing more and more that God can be trusted all TIMES. He’s my security. And TIME isn’t an enemy when its in God’s hands. TIME is a tool.
Lord, mold me through the tick, tick, tock. Even that, God.