Many people ask me what it’s like to have a baby in the house again. Honestly … it’s amazing!
When I first became a mom I was 17-years-old, ashamed and very unsure of myself. After I married, John I had two more kids in four more years. My third baby was born when I was 22-years-old. I was a good mom, yes, but I was uncertain. I didn’t know who I was. I saw my kids as an extension of my self-worth. I constantly compared myself with other moms. I felt I had something to “prove” since I was so young.
Also, when John and I were young parents we were still trying to figure out life. John was going to college. He also worked evenings. We had no money. We only had one car. Many days I felt like a single mom.
Today …
Today we have three older kids. We know parenting is hard, but doable. We are more settled. We enjoy every moment with our baby girl.
I know who I am as a mom. I trust God more. I don’t compare with other moms. I’ve discovered that doesn’t work. John is more present, too. He’s around more.
John and I feel we were called to be parents. Having this new baby girl has convinced us of that even more.
Looking forward to the next 18 years … eager to see how God is going to continue to grow us and change us!
I had wondered this very same thing about you, especially as I’d been reading “Blue Like Play Dough.” So encouraging 🙂
I love this! Having a baby again is like being a first-time mom again – but without all of the self-doubt and lack of confidence in our abilities.
Loved this Tricia! I’ve experienced (and am experiencing) this with my mom, who decided to adopt my young brother Korey when their youngest (my sister) was 16 or 17). I love him to pieces. He’s been a part of our family since he was a few weeks old (a tiny preemie who was born sick because his mommy was a drug addict while pregnant with him). He’ll be ten in January and he’s a thriving, busy, smart, amazing little guy! Miss them!!!
It’s such a calling and a ministry!!!
Love this post Tricia! Alyssa is such a gorgeous little addition to your family – a true blessing.