Today, I came upon this quote:
“To serve is to be a feather on the breath of God.” ~Hildegard of Bingen
So many times I feel that way as a wife, as a mom, as a writer. Being a very sensitive person, I can sense needs. Maybe it’s God who points them out to me, then “poof” He blows me that direction. And the majority of time I follow happily along. (Yes, there are times I drag my feet, but I eventually catch on, realizing God loves me most and leads me where it is best for me, for the world, and for eternity.)
“Okay, God, you want me to connect with WWII veterans, sure. Teen moms, okay. Gen X parents, not a problem.”
The problem arises when I want to do it all … at the same time. Ideas bounce around in my mind nonstop. They don’t quit. And sometimes instead of a feather, I feel like that little steel ball in a pinball machine. Bounce, boing, ouch!
Which leads me to another quote I read today:
“We actually slander and dishonor God by our very eagerness to serve Him without knowing Him.” ~Oswald Chambers
When I take time to read, and pray, and journal, I connect with God. When I connect with God, I get a sense for His heart. When I sense His heart, I desire His will. When I desire His will, I pray for His will to be done in my life. God answers these prayers positively, because they are centered on the desires of His heart.
When opportunities come, when doors open, and I note these opportunities fit God’s desires (which are now my desires too), I walk through the doors.
Then, with each step throughout the day, I can easily point in twenty different directions, “Look, see here. Look what God has done! Look at what He is doing! Look where He is working!”
I “serve God” only when I know Him. If I don’t know Him, I’m serving myself.
I know God by taking time for His word, and for prayer–not the type of prayer in which I send up a 20 item list of needs, but when I praise Him, ask Him to fill me with His wisdom, and look at situations in my life through His point-of-view.
Also, only by looking into His eyes can I truly see myself. Myself the way He created me … to live and laugh and love … and serve.